Monday, December 13, 2010
Crash boom bang...
I heard the sound of the car and its 1.45am..my heart starts beating faster for some reason. I knew it was him and I was right as 3 minutes later he started to open the main door. I was in the loo and a few minutes later he enters his room and the slams the door. My heart is still beating fast and I got out to go straight to my room. Huge sigh of relief...plus horrible thoughts run through my head. I dont get why is life so stressful at times. Why is he so easily angered and other people become the victim? Weekend has finally ended and as much as I do look forward to it, sometimes I do feel relieved when it has ended for many other reasons. Sucks but its true. Im not looking for to waking up and going to the hospital at all..to see the neurologist especially. As I put my head down to sleep tonight, I cant help but wonder...what if, just what if I had a tumor? Hell no that fighting in my world would stop but one thing for sure is that, my last days would be spent in my lovely hometown..quiet, peaceful, happy land called Hatyai... Plus i'll shop in toys r us like i never did before.. Ha ha ha... Well, that's all the crap i have for now...till the next crap crops up again...
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Really understand how you feel but you know how he is laa...i would be shitting bricks if i were you. I'm so tua bangka and still fear him but i guess he has his reasons for acting the way he does sometimes. Gotta be patient yah. Just like how you always tell me to hang in there, you osso same-same k.
ReplyDeleteNiways, hope all went well at the hospital. Really wish i was there for you last Fri and i could teman you today but i'm stuck with my crappy fuckin job :(. We catch up over the weekend k. Hugs!!!