destiny....

you were gone without warning
slipped through my fingers
and out of my life unexpectedly
now a life of regret is all i have
when that's the last that one should have
but i tell myself that everything happens for a reason
somehow the reason isn't uncovered just yet
and maybe it never would be at all

so tell me why did it turn out this way
a way i never imagined
if the truth unfolds
you'd see what you meant
you'd see the meaning of everything
but now you've flown
to a place i'll never go
far beyond where my destiny would ever take me

if i'd turn back the clock
i can't help but wonder
how would it be for you
will you see what's meant to be
will you do the things you've done
and would you give me hope
and then take it all away
while i stand there waiting all these while

so tell me why did it turn out this way
a way i never imagined
if the truth unfolds
you'd see what you meant
you'd see the meaning of everything
but now you've flown
to a place i'll never go
far beyond where my destiny would ever take me

too late to even figure it out
way too late to wonder
should have been much earlier
way before destiny called...........

Tired...as shit

Is what it is now...can't wait to go back and sleep like never before!! Then again, it's what I always do and what I do best probably so what the hell am I talking about?

The vision at the hosp...to believe or not to believe? Why do people have to add sooo many more details to it?! It's more of a disgrace than anything else. Couldn't they consider the consequences of speaking more and more about it?!?!

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be...she came, she saw, she conquered!!! Ouhh yeah!!!

And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be


Let it be, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom

Let it be


And when the brokenhearted people

Living in the world agree

There will be an answer, let it be


For though they may be parted

There is still a chance that they will see

There will be an answer, let it be....Surely there would be an answer to this soon. It's just a matter of time until the truth behind it or the scientific explanation perhaps would surface after much research?!?!?!

OUH WELL....................

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Fear...it comes naturally when you're near
when you stare
when you return
when you're away
when your message beeps
when you move
how could such a feeling come so often and naturally all the time?

Love...is beneath all the fear and all of it
when you do something
when you do nothing at all
when you get mad
when you cry
when you smile
when you speak
when you leave
when you return
when you insult
when you walk
when you eat
when you sleep most of all
coz that's when I know you're there though my love's unaccepted
though you make it difficult to love you
I try hard enough to send you a message as you sleep
And I wonder if it's ever delivered to you
A message which says I love you more than words could ever say
If you only knew but perhaps it would not make a difference

Someday if I shall not awake
A message to your heart I shall send to make you realize how much I loved you and that I still do and I always will though it was never ever enough
If you looked deep in my eyes maybe you could have seen love beneath the fear
Yet I hope in my living eyes will you realize instead

the piss-look-alike

I stare blankly at the untouched mug of golden coloured, piss look alike liquid,
I start to think if I should take a sip, down it or pour it down the drain,
Then I back track my memory and struggle to remember my sudden love-hate relationship for this bloody crap in the mug...
Was it caused by joy, anger, disgust, confusion, frustration, hurt or simply just one of those crazy habits which some people end up having? Guess I'd never be able to answer that right away.
Someday, somehow the reason might surface perhaps. It would come out of the blue when it is least expected and the time is right..till then I guess life goes on as it always has. People come, people go, some change and some don't....some come back, while others leave instead, things are earned, things are lost. Guess the balance is never ever found as there will always be something which is not right at each point of time. How do find the strength to face a world where there's always something to bring you down? We see happy faces each day but more often than not, beneath happy faces lies a heart that's sad and a torn feeling which is beyond repair. I believe that very few happy faces are genuine and we will never be able to find out the truth due to the fear we have of letting the truth out.

With all this, perhaps the piss plays a part somehow and people tend to drown all that's inside with it. Does it even work? Well, perhaps for a good few minutes and then reality hits. Cheers to the piss which unfortunately does not work magic for long!! :-)