I wonder how you're feeling right now
If you'd feel like stabbing me to my death
With the sharpest knife you could ever find
If you'd feel like driving over me eighteen times till my brains and guts come spilling out
Or if you feel like pushing me over a bridge and watch me drown
If you feel the simplest idea that I should have just been ctrl+alt+del at the very beginning just like the others
I've chosen to ignore all of your attempts but it doesn't mean that I'm happy
It hurts beyond words and it kills me inside but what good would it do even if I did respond to you
I have never and would never be good enough for you no matter what
I'm sick of trying and decided to stop
Go ahead with your assumptions and whatever you think of me for you have always thought the worst of me anyway
Thank angels for sending others who do appreciate me for the ways I try since you were the one person whom I've tried to hard and failed miserably
But it just doesn't matter anymore
Maybe I have accepted the things that I would never be able to change
Maybe I have accepted that it was me who made belief all along that I could make things right with you
I wanted to get to know and I wanted you to know me but time has now passed
And the chance would never be mine ever
Maybe time will heal or maybe it won't but after all these years I doubt a few more years would make much difference