Noah Evan

backdated to 15.01.2013
noah is now 34 months, another 2 more months and he will be 3 years old

Noah's the cutest, smartest and coolest kid that I have ever met and I don't think I will ever meet another kid like him ever!! He is just one in a billion!!! Guess his awesomeness comes from an equal combination of his parents.

i wonder if someday Noah will be reading this!!

Well Noah, if the day does come...I love you heaps godson! You've brought so much joy from the first day that you came into this world! And well, if you are reading this, you might just wonder why am I so full of shit huh?!?!?! Hehehehehe....
Look for me and I will explain if I am still around! :-)

Part of me is looking forward to meet you before you leave
And another part wishes that I don't have to
Things just do not make sense when feelings are all mixed up
It feels like it's the end of the road and it should finally be
But somehow you keep coming back
You will always be a memory and one of the best I ever had but why can't you just remain as a memory since that's the path you've chosen?

If I could have one wish where I could change anything and turn back the time,
I would turn back the time to the days when you were here
Right there waiting and never having to leave
The person I knew back then who was just a call away
then again, wishes sometimes just don't come true..........

-broken-

i wanted you to know that i love the time we spent
i wanna hold you close and tell you so
i keep your memories and i know it serves me well
i wanna hold you tight and not let go

coz i'm broken when you're not here
and i don't feel right when you're not around

you're gonna go away, you won't feel me anymore

the worst has just begun and i can't breath no more
i wanna hold you close and make you feel
there's so much left to say but no way to speak
i wanna hold you tight and make you see

coz i'm broken when you're not here
and i don't feel right when you're not around

coz i'm broken when you're not here
and i don't feel like i could carry on
coz i'm broken when i'm lonesome
and i don't feel right when you're not around

you're gonna go away, you won't feel me anymore

i'm misunderstood as i always am
taken for granted for the millionth time
and i ask myself over and over again
but guess i'll never figure out why
perhaps it's easier for the rest
to take me for a hell ride and dump me in the middle of nowhere
someday perhaps i'll see the light
it might not shine bright but i'm sure i'll see it someday soon

y?

why does simple things get over complicated when it should not be?
why can't anything in life come easily for once?

why can't i cook and bake and shit at the very same time? :-) wouldn't that be time saving? hell yeah it would!!!!!

effin emo

emo emo emo elmoooooooo
i wanna go home...
an hour and ten minutes to go at work....shit
i wanna sleep!!!!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

time check = 05:47 AM....damnnnn

talkin to angels

another night when i'm dreaming of you
yea again my thoughts go back in time
to the days when it was you and me
they never had to be awesome
for me to want them back
they were simple yet they were everything
and i ask myself the same questions a million times
if you'd feel the same
and i leave it unanswered

instead i talk to angels
send them a message
and they come right down
though invisible i can feel them around
they know my heart and what's in it
unlike you who stays unaware
and then i hear them whisper
that everything's gonna be fine

if i went back in time
would things be different
will have the strength to tell you what's deep within
would you believe in me enough to want to stay
i'll never know since it is too late
i'll never find out even for my time's run out
i can never turn back the clock
to get you back again

i can only wish that angels would send you the message
to bring you back again
or let us both go back to the time when it was only you and me against the world
a wall built around us and happiness was all that surrounds

the lost cupid

cupid's lost
ain't gonna fall
even if cupid had already fallen
he's bumped his head
and has sweetly forgotten about me
and yet again i'm left in misery
a broken heart that's yet to be healed
but damaged more than it already is
and i sit and ask myself how could this be
that cupid's memory is erased

i wanna break down and cry
but i stop myself
for i know cupid would never hear me
i'm all forgotten once again
it never should have been
but that's the way the path goes
that i should be left
by cupid with a broken heart

if i found cupid
i wonder if cupid would remember
the days when everyone was helped
and i was left
would i get a second chance
to make it right again
so that for once i'm not forgotten
maybe i could trade all that i have
for cupid to gain back his memory
and he could shoot an arrow to the heart that's right but far
and bring you back to me

will it ever happen is something i should never count on
though it's sad to know
that the more i hope the more i'm broken
guess cupid's my only hope
or perhaps a shooting star that'll make my wish come true