Yet another day....So what?

So what if I'm quiet? So what if I am just this and that? So what if I choose to be this way? So what if I don't feel like changing? So what if I think I want to be this way? So what if I talk when I think I should talk? So what if I say only what I think is important? So what if I am not the way others want me to be? So what? So what if I do not meet the expectation of someone who does not even matter? So what if I refuse to speak way more than others do? So what if the words I have in my mind would not come out? So what if you don't know what I'm thinking? So what if my quietness is disturbance to the rest? So what if my thoughts is not what it should be? So what? So what if I did not do the right thing? So what if I had caused you hurt and pain that was simply unintentional? So what if I felt hurt by your actions when I was not supposed to? So what if it makes me sick that you do not speak to me? So what if I refuse to do the things that you want me to do? So what if I am a changed person? So what if I begged you to stay when all you want to do is leave? So what?
So what if I want the things that I know is almost impossible? So what if I think the impossible is somehow possible? So what if the impossible becomes possible because I thought it was possible? So what if my actions make me fall? So what if my quietness causes that much of discomfort? So what if I loved you more than anything else in the world? So what if I knew you could not walk on water yet I dared you to it? So what if I drank too much? So what if I smoked too much? So what if I did all the things that I should never started doing? So what? So what if I knew I was leaving soon and I wanted your time badly? So what if there is never enough time? So what if there is no way to make me speak? So what if I was born to be this way? So what if it was written in the stars that I was meant to be quiet? So what if I'd rather write than speak? So what if my writings are not understood? So what? So what if no one ever could understand me? So what if the one person who understood me left me without a reason? So what? So what if I am slow? So what if I'm scared of many things? So what if I can't get myself to think the way I'm supposed to?

To the one who suffered pain...

To the one who suffered pain...or at least I believe so and brought me into this world,
I would like to say to my mother and add the words from hell but I shall hold that back for I do, and always will love her very much,
Somehow and in some way she drives me up the wall,
Leaving me terribly speechless...
Just like today when she was inconsiderate to a level that amazed me,
Goodness...I wish she could hear herself and somehow realize things,
But I guess she never would,
So she could not accept that my job was important and that I was not able to pick her up..I've spent every Friday for the past months getting in late to work and just one Friday when I just could not be late for work, She could show just a little bit of consideration and say 'It's alright' but instead sound frustrated over the found and give comments that gets so upsetting,
Oh well, and there went the whole day of work feeling like hitting the bar and unwinding...
Somehow the minutes and then the hours went by,
And finally the day is over...as I hope I could change and put this all behind me....

Readings from Readings....awesomeness....

One of the best books I've bought!!! Damn...they're just hilarious!

Anywayz...why do people come to work when somehow they don't want to do what they're supposed to do? Selfishness which seem to have no end. Sighh...
Counting the minutes yet again since troubled by a few.

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhh..the long, duper long awaited Friday is finally here!
Such a long, boring, tiring week. On top of it, soo unfruitful since nothing much was done. Yet I'm tired!! Damn!!! Mental stress that causes unlimited tiredness...lol.

Here comes the long Friday as usual anyway. But then it'll be the weekend...yahoooo

sea of thoughts....

It's early in the morning and somehow my thoughts run back to you
I'm wondering whether I would be better if I erased you and just closed that chapter
Somehow as it's always easier said than done, you come back without a warning and there's simply no way of stopping it
Why has life taken you away from this part of earth?
And even so taken you away, far away from my life..
It's just never fair to not be able to even have a clue of whether I do cross your mind
Times changed, people changed but you never did, right until you left
Guess that's one of the most amazing things about you
I'll wish upon a star and hope that someday you'd be back againand perhaps then never leave yet again